So I've had a pretty decent day. Went out for breakfast, yummy. The relaxed a little while I waited for it to warm up a little more before running. I knew where I was running today, I was going park at my old high school and run north to where I usually start so that I could take advantage of the football stadium bleachers to do the stairs. Murphys law was in effect on my run today - every time I saw another runner coming towards me I hit a walk interval. :-:/ I made it out to my normal starting point feeling good and started back to the school. I was at about 4.5 when I started hearing a runner approaching me from behind and shortly after a woman passed me. Now on this bike path there are roads that need to be crossed and we were approaching the road. The woman stopped at the road waited a minute or so and then headed back as she approached me she put her hand up and we gave each other a high five! This totally made my day! So far since moving here I've been really disappointed with the running community in this area. No one is friendly and I'm not used to that at all. Anyway I finished my run and headed to the stadium to do some stairs. Since its been a while since I've had to go up any kind of stairs I decided to do 5 minutes of stairs for today and keep adding more each week. I definitely need to do more stairs!
I came home showered, had dinner and then watched some tv. When I got bored watching tv I downloaded my run from my Garmin watch and wrote up my run on Dailymile. I watching checking Twitter on my phone - don't ask I have no idea why I was on my phone instead of the laptop. The screen shut off like it does and when I went to get back on it didn't respond at all so I shut it off, waited and turned it back on. A screen popped up saying the pc has shut down incorrectly and gave me options for restarting. I reopened the laptop went to open google chrome and the laptop shut down again - ugh!!!!! Now it won't turn on at all. So I texted my brother to ask his advice. I tell him what happened and instead of advising me he texts back "so mom is supporting you and your cat and now you broke her laptop. Nice job aunt Janet. Lol" I didn't find this funny at all. Our aunt is an alcoholic who has a lot of problems.
I'll admit I have problems - I have severe clinical depression. I lost my job a year ago and had to move in with my mom. I'm working on this. I'm back on meds, I'm in counseling and until now I haven't felt stable enough to have a job. I did lol for work when I moved here but I was getting sorry we're going in a different direction everywhere I applied. And all I'm looking for is a cashier or stock job to pay my bills while I figure out what I want to do. I feel guilty about my situation as it is I don't need my brother pointing it out to me. It really hurt. It was like getting sucker punched. I just wanted to curl up somewhere and cry.
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